What do YOU want today?

I am back from visiting my family and my niece; life is sort of falling into place and getting back into its own rhythm.

I am sad about how I left things with my sister, but my family is strong and we love each other dearly so I am not too concerned. Right now the most important thing is that lovely baby that stole all our hearts.

Being back is a struggle and my heart aches at not being able to hold her whenever I want anymore. I feel the need to bring up the birth and baby pictures to anybody I encounter, which I should really stop doing.

Aside from that, I am soon hosting a dinner for 20+ of my friends, which has me a little bit on the anxious yet excited side. I will be making a bunch of recipes from the cookbook I am trying to finish on my other blog (Laura in the Kitchen) plus some other authentic Puertorrican foods.

This dinner has me nervous for a variety of different reasons, but primarily because I see it as a way of mending ties with my ex-boyfriend and I’s common acquaintances. Common friends is always a gray area as I’ve mentioned on some of my previous posts, but I figured I’d set up the opportunity to open the lines of friendship. Not like I can think of anything better to do and if all else fails, then at least my own friends will be there too to have my back!

Aside from that, there is a possibility that I’ll be going on assignment to Argentina for two months later this year!

Being positive for me is a constant choice and when things like these happen, it just helps to strengthen my belief that good things come if you truly put yourself out there and try. Let go of negative influences and focus on yourself! If something feels wrong for you, then don’t do it. Realize that you can get through any tough time on your own and that you can also make wonderful things happen.

Although I wish to mend things with this circle of friends, I also realize that their constant presence in my life isn’t necessary. I do my best to foster relationships and focus on friendships/family because I’ve chosen that those things are worth it, but ultimately what I wish to focus on is myself and my goals! I want to cook, study and travel; there will always be people along the way as long as I am willing to invite them in.

Every day truly boils down to a simple question – what do YOU want right now?